Dear and beloved friend
It's hard for me to write things down, but I'll try to be as authentic as I can. I realize I don't have much choice right now and commit myself to do everything I can to help myself. That means, first of all, revealing once and for all what is going on inside me because I can no longer keep everything in my stomach.
In 2017 my life fell apart. I started to suffer from very severe anxiety, bothersome thoughts, and panic attacks around the clock. I started suffering from terrible nightmares that prevented me from sleeping at night. Each night was a challenging journey in itself.
A few months later, significant physical suffering also appeared. I suffered from recurrent intestinal infections that did not allow me to digest food properly. I started feeling like my body stopped functioning at once. I had severe nausea and migraines that did not stop for a moment. I could hardly move and could not function or work. Eventually, I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease called Ankylosing spondylitis.
In time the symptoms got better with a lot of help I got from others, but today I still hardly sleep due to nightmares. The depression, exhaustion, and pain after each such night are challenging by themselves. I am very restless during the days, and it is tough for me to think and concentrate, even for a moment.
Recently I've been given new hope for improving my situation. I have recently been offered an innovative treatment for post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) – ketamine infusions. However, after years of failed treatments, my financial situation has dramatically deteriorated. My family and friends around me can only support me in a limited way. I'm therefore afraid I can no longer pay even for the basic psychological treatment, let alone an innovative and expensive treatment.
At this point, I am drained and exhausted, but I still decided to overcome the shame and ask for help in financing the innovative treatments offered to me in addition to financing the continuation of the psychological therapy I need.
I really hope that the new treatment will allow me to return to myself and wish to thank you very much from the bottom of my heart for helping me.